11/14/06

The Ache for Heaven

"Jesus knew that our hunger for heaven - our sense of incompleteness now and our joy in what is to come - would draw us to Him. It is a famine in the making. Even for Jesus it was not glory in the moment, but the powerful hunger for the glory to come that was in the work at the cross. Early Christians put a name to that longing - 'Christ in you, the hope of glory.' As you give Him your shame and weakness today, may He set that hope of glory before you like a feast." Michael Card

My pastor put this quote in the bulletin on Sunday. It reminded me of my first year of being a dad. My son Joshua turns one in two days. There aren't words to describe this first year. I am literally speechless when it comes to expressing the fun and joy I have experienced. Little things like learning how to parent with my wife, singing Joshua to sleep, and bumping our giggling heads together accumulate into bundles of joy. But even in those moments of the purest joy I have ever experienced I feel a longing for eternity. I watch Joshua learn to walk and think I am really going to miss him crawling around. I remember watching him learn to crawl and thinking how much I was going to miss him lying on his back and playing with us. As wonderful and inexpressible as the joy is I realize it is temporal. Earth's most satisfying joys still leave me with an ache for heaven.

We are pilgrims here. This isn't home. I rest today knowing that the joys I am blessed with here point to a pure and eternal joy in the presence of the Almighty. I long to be with him and know the joy without the ache.

11/6/06

Psalm 139

We read this psalm corporately yesterday at church. God's majesty and glory are so far beyond my comprehension. Like David, I confess that such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. I am humbled that this majestic, powerful, unfathomable God has shown himself to me. I am once again broken by the gospel.

Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.